In a Heart I Belong To

The time we spent days together

I knew my heart was stolen by another guy

The times we went to another place together

I knew my mind was screw up by another love

But when i don't meet 'the time we...'

I don't want to confess,

that my heart is a 'holey heart'

Like there's a far distance between us

The distance we created before, by words

In place i belong to, i was full-covered by love

I was in the middle of  the loved one

I never needed to go to another place

But indescribably, i feel one thing vanished away from me

That was when you were not around me

That was when you didn't say 'hi Nda...' when i was online

Or when your look was not focus on me, thus i felt you were so far

But you stood in front of me

Blindly, i don't want my mind to think of you

However i do

Paradox...

I need a space, i know you neither do

To love you is to set you free

To think of you is to forget you

You love being free and playing the hearts

**

In a time we'll meet, i want those another days

The days we've ever spent together

Without distance, with no space between us

With no words...

#Random but Worth-It!

Cheerstraw!! :)

It's been awhile i didn't write anything here. Doesn't mean i have no idea or something to share with. But sometimes, i rethink and those all need to be hidden. I enjoyed my feelings all by my self these days.

But when i think the feelings are overloaded, i need a bin to throw them away.

Or spread them out of my mind.

Happy news should be shared.

But people, i mean, man, in a wider meaning, creatures *but i'll call it people*, usually keep it alone.

Oh maaan, i need to open my mind!

Actually, indescribably i feel so bored with all of these shits!

Once, a friend i usually called "bestfriend" had made me so 'eeeegrh!' so that it implied my mind. And of course, it made me rethink the words 'bestfriend'.

Sorry, this post is random. I can't think clearly for now.

But when i say i'm such a broken-hearted girl, that's not right, but that's not wrong too.

I was undesrestimated girl, it's true.

My best friend makes me hate her, it's true. 

What's wrong with me, universe?

I just want people to act what they want to act to me!

But seems like they're busy faking their actions. Caseclosed.

I'll show them how to be a friend.

Tuhan, maafin saya kalo emang saya salah penilaian. Tapi begitulah yang saya rasakan. Begitulah yang saya pikirkan. Bagitulah keliatannya. Dan ya Tuhan yang baik hati dan tidak sombong, saya lebih suka berteman dengan segelintir orang yang emang niat mau temenan sama saya, dibandingkan harus berpura-pura mau temenan sama saya demi beberapa hal yang saya sendiri juga ngga ngerti lho, sumpah. Jadi ya Tuhan, sebenernya saya nulis apasih? Ini kenapa jadi curhat yang menye-menye begini? Sudah ah, ujan udah berenti, mari kita pulaaaaan! xD